Friday, October 28, 2011

The Party

This year we did a red wagon/fall harvest party.  Here are a few pictures:

My sister in law put together the wagon and haybales . . . way better than I could have ever done for sure!!


Favor table with homeade apple pie caramel apples, kettle corn, and pumpkin shaped rice krispie treats





Dessert table, iced sugar cookies, icebox cookies, spanish cookies, spicecake pumpkin cakepops, chocolate cake with salted caramel frosting, and orange dreamsicle cupcakes with orange vanilla buttercream frosting


The little man blew out his own candles:-)

Thursday, October 27, 2011

I'm 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Very hard for me to believe that my little baby is two years old!  These last couple of weeks we celebrated his actual birthday and had our big birthday bash as well.  Owen was much more into his gifts this year and really enjoyed playing with all of his little friends.  We were so lucky to have so many friends and nearly all of our immediate families come out to celebrate this special time with us.  I TOTALLY had prego brain and forgot to get a picture of Owen and Emma when they were fresh in their birthday outfits, and I'm still bummed about it since I love seeing how much they change and grow everytime they get together.

We started Owen's actual birthday by going in together and singing happy birthday and taking a picture when he woke up . . . . I'm not sure what he thought of that:-)






That afternoon my parents showed up and were able to spend his actual birthday with us.  We got Owen a wagon for his birthday and to be honest the motivation behind it was for decoration for his birthday party, but he love love loves going for rides in his wagon!

Seriously, don't even ask about this cake, it was delicious but seriously the ugliest cake I've ever made.





It was a wonderful day, everyday I think about Owen's beginning and how truly lucky we are to have him in our lives, still sometimes there is a little empty spot where I imagine Liam growing and thriving as Owen is and wonder what it would be like what would his personality be like. . .I try to use these thoughts as something positive so that I never ever take for granted what I do have.  I have to take a second and just say thank you to my husband for working as hard as he does to allow me to spend every precious moment I can with Owen.  I am also so thankful to God for giving me Owen and my family and for never losing patience with me as I continue to try and be a better person through his image.  I think I'm one of the luckiest people on the planet. 

Saturday, September 10, 2011

25 weeks

Okay, 25 weeks and 1 day pregnant!  I can't believe it, it truly feels very surreal.  I just had another ultrasound and the baby is measuring about a week bigger and my cervix is still long and closed.  This week was a little weird for me because I passed up the 24 week 5 day mark which was when my twin boys were born 2 years ago.  After such a traumatic pregnancy and delivery and first three months of life, I am so grateful and thankful and filled with happiness that this pregnancy has been such a night and day difference from my last pregnancy.  I still have a VERY long way to go, but I wanted to express some excitement about surpassing such a meaningful milestone to me.

On a sour note, I failed my glucose challenge test which means I have to do the 3 hour glucose tolerance test to determine if I have gestational diabetes.  Thankfully only 1/3 of people who fail the 1 hour test actually have diabetes and I am an incredibly low risk (it was probably that totino's pizza I had for lunch), but I will be  a little anxious until I have the results from this longer test.

Friday, September 2, 2011

Finally September

I'll admit, I put up all this decor 2 weeks ago:-)  I couldn't help myself, fall means so much . . . . my husband's birthday, my birthday, my son's birthday, Halloween, Thanksgiving all leading up to Christmas and our new baby's birthday!





I think that I will make a table runner for fall, I found some dark brown fabric and I have a bunch of burlap so maybe over the next few weekends I will take that on so I can bring some more texture and warmth to this table.

Middle pumpkin is soooo pretty in person all silvery in some light and gold in others, I love it! (a gift from my sister in law)



I love the colors for fall, everything is so warm!  I can't wait to go get my pumpkin candles for the season, its almost time to start baking!


This mirror needs a wreath for sure and maybe some cool letters or a framed sign for the table?

No halloween stuff out yet, that waits until October:-)  I'm already gearing up for Owen's 2nd birthday!

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Can it please be Fall?

This weekend I put up my first fall decorations, I'm hoping that cooler weather will follow . . . . . except this week it is supposed to top out at 115:-(  Oh well, I'm bringing out the fall decor anyway I know I'm not the only one out there:-)

I made these wreaths in January they are normally all white and ivory flowers that I got at Michael's for 50% off, and I just add accents for the different seasons.  There is more red than I would normally do for fall, but it goes with the theme for Owen's upcoming fall birthday so I left the red up from July 4th.

Summer Travel

We've been out and about to Palm Springs with Eric's side of the family and up to the Bay Area to visit mine.  Owen continues to amaze us with how much he grows and changes everyday!  His vocabulary is increasing, and he is now wanting to use a fork and spoon for everything.  The fork is a very new addition and you should see how happy he gets when he is successful at stabbing food with it.

Some of Owen's favorite activities right now are "pretend mopping" with the swifter, coloring with his washable crayons (which come off tables, outlets, chairs, floor), playing keep away and peekaboo with Linus

My belly is getting larger and I have started telling Owen that there is a baby inside . . . but I think the concept is a little too abstract for him still:-)

Thoroughly enjoying the slide . . .

. . . and the swing

. . . and the pool . . .

Traditional Japanese play outfit from close family friends

Sharing with my cousin Emma

Loving the waterfall in Palm Springs . . . and the watering can!

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Status Update:-)

Okay, I am nursing the remainder of a cold but I am on my way to feeling human again!  We are in between little getaways, after getting back from La Quinta (near Palm Springs) for a Damko family vacation, we are getting ready to head up to the bay area to visit my parents for some much more enjoyable weather!

I'm now 19 and a half weeks along, and its a boy!  We are very excited to be bringing a brother home for Owen.  From my experience, growing up with sisters, I can really appreciated having same sex siblings and look forward to watching the brother's relationship develop!  We went in for my first cervical length check and before my doctor even looked at it (this is the maternal-fetal medicine specialist), he brought up putting in a preventative cerclage (suturing my cervix shut) because with my past, he wasn't super happy about just doing the hormone shots and extra ultrasounds.  Although this is surgery, I was actually relieved to have that option available to me as we tick along through these weeks I have felt my anxiety building a little bit about every little feeling etcetera, so to have even a little peace that at least I am not silently dilating is reassuring.  So we had the surgery of which I will spare you the details, and have had our first two week cervix check which was good, so we will just keep hoping that everything keeps progressing normally.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

The Big Announcement

The shirt says it all, but for those of you still guessing, we are expecting another little bundle around Christmastime.  I am 16 weeks pregnant which explains my dissapearance from the blogger world as the idea of typing on a computer was enough to send me to the toilet wretching:-)  Snuggly in my second trimester I am feeling physically a lot better, but I fear that the emotional turmoil of my last pregnancy will be a shadow in my mind at least until I get past 28 weeks, so if you pray, please pray for our family that my body will hold this pregnancy till its proper due date!  There is only one baby in there so that I'm told should help.  I also start some hormone therapy to prevent preterm labor and biweekly cervical length checks starting this coming Wednesday (I'm hoping to get a quick peek at the sex too!)

Independence Day

Happy Fourth of July to everyone!!  We were lucky enough to slip out of the heat here in the valley (it topped 118 on the 4th!!), and head out to Temecula for the weekend.  First order of business, see a very dear friend get married in Pasadena on the 2nd.  Congratulations to Kevin and Sandra!!!  If you had told me when I first met Kevin that I would love him so much and end up at his wedding I would have told you you were crazy, the level of teasing I endured from him was barely tolerable, but underneath that sarcasm was and is a very caring and loyal friend.   I'll never forget Big Sky Indoor Championships in Pocotello Idahoe, I totally choked in the 800M, something I've never in my life done before and I was in perfect shape no reason.  I was walking back to my stuff afterwards, dazed and confused and upset and I saw Kevin and I just looked at him and I was about to crumble and he grabbed my by the shoulders and said, "Ze, it's okay.", all of a sudden I didn't feel like a failure and I'll always be grateful to him for saying that.  It seems so simple, but if you're a runner you might understand.  I love you Kevin and Sandra!

Okay, back to the rest of the holiday:-) Sunday we headed to Del Mar for the County Fair. The weather was perfect a little overcast with a gentle breeze. . . . a huge relief from Phoenix! Owen had a blast riding the big slide with Daddy, and a few other rides before sleeping most of the rest of the fair away. I haven't been in a long time and it was fun. On Monday we headed into Old Town Temecula for the annual parade which was a blast, but really really hot. Owen watched the police cars and then sat in the shade and sprayed water on himself for the rest of it. I enjoyed seeing all the pageant queens and princesses and some of the local Temecula groups as well as some veterans from past wars including WWII. Mom, you will appreciate this, whenever I saw any horses it brought me back to all the parades we used to walk in, especially the infamous Christmas parade with Apple Blossom! In the afternoon we headed over to Kevin and Christine's house for a BBQ and some family fun. I love going to Christine's house I always get good decorating ideas! Owen loves to play with Emmas toys and the two of them even got in Emma's toddler pool together . . . sort of. Owen was not so sure about sharing a pool (have to work on that:-), but once he realized he didn't have to be scared of Emma he did enjoy the water! The babies liked looking at the sparklers and the boys loved lighting them! Christine's sister Val made a patriotic berry trifle (which I had been DREAMING of since decorations went out at JoAnns back in May:-), yum!






Saguaro Lake and Crescent Moon Park


We have been busy bees again, here are a few of our recent excursions before of course this AWFUL heat has made nearly everything seem impossible:-)

Friday, May 27, 2011

Out and about with us

We've been busy this last month, the heat is kickin way up here in Phoenix, and we are gearing up for summer. We have been frequenting The Children's Museum in Phoenix, they have a wonderful room that is just ages 3 and under and Owen LOVES to run around and explore in there, today we also discovered the "noodle forest" which is hundreds of those swim noodles hung from the ceiling that you can push your way through, Owen thought it was amazing, and it spits you out at the "rock painting" station which is an area where they have these flat rocks and wet paintbrushes that the kids just paint the rocks with water. . . . . and they love it! We've also been to the zoo a handful of times, Owen loves "Monkey Village" and the giraffes, and then we pet the goats and play in the sandbox or the splash pad. Owen also experienced his first Diamondbacks game which was nice, we had awesome seats 10 rows up at 3rd base (foul ball zone) so we had our eyes out, but he loved it (at least the first 5 innings) and he tasted his first ballpark frank (and loved it). This past weekend a local farm had their annual peach festival so we headed down to Queen Creek (aka BFE) and had lunch and picked peaches, it was great, it turns out that peach trees are perfect for toddlers with all of their close to the ground branches. To finish of May we are heading to Detroit tomorrow to visit my sister and her baby girl Amara who just turned 7 weeks! Here are some pics of late.





Petting a goat named "Rocky Road"

My first hotdog, and D-backs game!

I love splash pads!

I love noodle forsest even more!

The 3 muskateers hard at work painting rocks (Kellan, Owen and Sammy)

Sand and Light table

Monday, May 9, 2011

Happy Mother's Day

A Mother's Day Prayer

Dear God,

Now that I am no longer young, I have friends whose mothers have passed away.  I have heard these sons and daughters say they never fully appreciated their mothers until it was too late to tell them.

I am blessed with a dear mother who is still alive.  I appreciate her more each day.  My mother does not change, but I do.  As I grow older and wiser, I realize what an extraordinary person she is.  How sad that I am unable to speak these words in her presence but they flow easily from my pen.

How does a daughter begin to thank her mother for life itself?  For the love, patience and just plain hard work that go into raising a child?  For running after a toddler, for understanding a moody teenager, for tolerating a college student who knows everything?  For waiting for the day when a daughter realizes how wise her mother really is?

How does a grown woman thank a mother for continuing to be a mother?  For being ready with advice (when asked) or remaining silent when it is most appreciated?  For not saying, "I told you so", when she could have uttered those words dozens of times?  For being essentially herself - loving, thoughtful, patient and forgiving?

I don't know how, dear God, except to ask you to bless her as richly as she deserves and to help me live up to the example she has set.  I pray that I will look as good in the eyes of my children as my mother looks in mine.

A daughter (author unknown)

I wish I could take credit for such eloquent words, as I retype them they ring so true I feel like they could be mine.  Now that I have had my own children, I can appreciate even more the love that comes from being a mother.  When I rock Owen to sleep and gently put him in his crib, I think about how my own mother must have treated me as tenderly making sure I was comfortable and safe.  When I pick Owen up and comfort him, wiping tears from his eyes or his runny nose, I think, wow, my mom did this for me. 

Did she worry about the world being a safe enough place for me, like I worry for Owen?  I bet she wondered, how I would turn out, what would I be, who would I be when I grew up.  Did she ever have the moments of doubt that I do, of whether or not she was making the right decision or doing everything right by me . . . . my mother always seems so sure of herself, and so knowledgeable, I can't imagine her having any doubt or worry about her mothering skills.

Mom, thank you for making such a great home for me.  Thank you for giving me sisters, especially one so close to me, even though she does get special treatment.  (haha, J/K)  Thank you for raising me to be a moral person.  Thanks for always making delicious meals, and making me eat my vegetables.  (And letting me think I was sneaky by spitting some out into a napkin).  Thank you for giving me ponies, and dogs, and cats, and rabbits, and rats, and hamsters, and sheep (am I leaving anything out?), oh yeah, tadpoles from the creek.  Thank you for letting me make horrible mistakes and figure out how horrible they were on my own and really learning from them (most of the time).  Thank you for teaching me by example the importance of voting and the democratic process, thank you for instilling in me the belief that you should take care of your neighbor whether that person be right next door or across the border, or across the world, and that you should take care of those less fortunate than you, because aren't we all equal and human?  These things you taught me some by words, but most by actions and I am forever grateful that I have such a wonderful example.  As that prayer stated, I hope that one day my own children will look at me the way I look at you.  I love you mommy.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter to everyone, I hope you all had a great weekend with your families.  Here in P town, Owen woke up to an Easter suprise.  For us it was a mini preview of what Christmas is going to be like this year.  He was so excited to see those baskets full of goodies!  We woke up early and went to mass at 9 with the Cooneys, which was outdoors and perfect for little ones, and then headed over to their home for brunch afterwards.  Bri made these super yummy eggs with basil and zucchini, and then a potato hash with steak in it, it was to die for, she also made bread, scones, and red velvet sanwiches.  I contributed with some easter egg cake pops (what else:-), a tall stack of crepe (courtesy of my new crepe pan from my mom . . . . love it), and my sister made cinnamon rolls.  Owen and Kellan both had a lot of fun until they began to turn back into pumpkins around 12:30 so we headed home for a nap and Eric and I joined him, it was heavenly and lasted 3 and a half hours!!!!  Then we headed over to our friends The Gages for afternoon treats.  We got there just as Angela was setting out the desserts, icecream cake, more cake pops, cupcakes among other things.  Owen was right at home with everyone there, and found a cool riding toy that Ava also wanted to ride . . . . the same one:-)  So she climbed on in front of him, and you can see what he thought of that below:-)

All in all a fantastic day, and we all slept like ROCKS that night!



My very own frying pan!

Curls DON"T like hats! . . .no, this is not what I wore to Church!

Dynamic Duo!

Friday, April 22, 2011

Me and my friends

The girls and I have changed our walks to start from one of our houses so that we can have a little playdate afterwards.  Then Owen comes home and CRASHES for like 3 hours, its awesome!
Sammy, Findley and Owen


Kellan and Owen
Watching these boys together figuring things out is hilarious!  I hope we are able to keep up the schedule because I have them most incredible time with the girls on our walk and then just watching the babies explore their world and learn that there are other little people to play with:-)

Thursday, April 14, 2011

March for Babies Rain or Shine!!

Lissette, Eric, Matix, Kevin, Kellan, Bri, Me, Angela, Chad, Remie, Owen, Eric, Chris, Kat and Brian
Okay, so we woke up this morning to freezing temperatures and rain!!!!!!!!!!!  WTF Phoenix, don't you know we have plans today:-P  No matter, we bundled up, babies and all and all trekked out for a 5K walk in support of healthy babies!  Kat saved the day with about 10 garbage bags that we used to cover exposed blanket on the strollers.  Owen had his orange down jacket, two thick blankets, and then a garbage bag like a sleeping bag to keep him warm and dry.  Our very good friends The Creels had a sick baby and couldn't make it out to join us, we were bummed, but completely understood, I just wish Mike in particular had been able to see the shirts all together in person, but hopefully the photo does it justice, it took a lot of nerve for us to unzip our jackets, and it was hard because our hands were numb! 

I didn't go to the walk last year because Owen was still too small, so it was a new experience for me.  We saw a couple of Liam's nurses there and Sue (Liam's first Primary Nurse almost since day one of life) had Liam's name on the back of her shirt, which brought me to tears.  It was very moving to look at other people's team shirts with names and gestational ages of babies, lots of shirts in memorium of lost souls.  I saw a team shirt with two sets of tiny footprints with angel wings and it said always in our hearts our sweet angels and had the short dates of their little lives.  It really humbled me, and was a strong reminder of how lucky I am to have Owen in my life, I could have a shirt like that, and I don't. 

We're in Phoenix?  Seriously?!

Amber on the left was there to hand Liam back to God in his last moments, and Sue his first primary wiped snot and tears from my face with her own shirt when I held him for the last time.


Anyhow, looking at our team photo, I am again humbled and grateful to have such loving friends and family that will come out to support us and such a deserving cause even in foul weather, I never seem to be able to find a word stronger than thank you, but to all our friends and especially to Mike Creel and Pink Mouse for designing and printing such a kick ass shirt, thank you.  Thank you, Thank you Thank you, from the bottom of my heart.